MTV is preparing to air a new documentary on Britney Spears where she candidly discusses her loneliness and her regrets about her much-publicized erratic behavior.
“I sit there and I’ll look back and I’m like: I’m a smart person. What the hell was I thinking?” the pop star says in the 90-minute film, tentatively titled For the Record, produced in partnership with MTV.
All the gossip seems to be in here and on the record. a film clip showed to media has her talking about her divorce, hospitalization, and the loss of custody of her sons.
“I’ve been through a lot in the past two or three years, and there’s a lot that people don’t know,” she says.
“Sometimes I think I get kind of lonely because you don’t open the gate up that much, you know I mean?” she adds. “You’re guarded. You have to be that way, so I’m kind of stuck in this place and it’s like: How do you deal? And you just cope, and that’s what I do. I just cope with it, every day.”
The documentary airs on MTV on Nov. 30, two days before the release of her new album, Circus.